Baby evicted on 2/23

So the day came...  My induction day. It made me nervous cuz I knew what's in store. I also was worried about my son.  I've never been away from overnight... I didn't know how he was gonna be without both my husband and I. 

I was told to call the labor and deliver to make sure they were not busy before I left. They told me that they were waiting for me..  OK. Quarter after 5 pm I waddled my huge self in there and checked in with my dad.  He was dropping me off and my husband was going to come over when he gets Tobi to sleep.  We know nothings gonna happen in a couple of hours anyways... When I got to the room the nurse showed me a huge live of red velvet cake that the other nurses went and bought for me as motivation  as I been cake deprived due to gestational diabetes. I had to go for non stress testing on the baby twice a week from 32 week and until giving birth so they got to know me and my unfulfilled desire to have cake! I was super touched! 

I got a dose of cytotec around 9ish and had to be monitored and this and that.  The IV in my hand was driving me crazy.  Also the wrist band they out on me made me itch badly.  Small contractions  here's and there and they did another dose 4hours later.  I slept a little here and there while they came in and out of the room.  My poor husband didn't sleep much I know.  Morning rolls around and my doctor comes in with an old ultrasound machine cuz the nurse couldn't find my cervix and feel baby's head and thought perhaps she was breech.  Well, she was where she was supposed to be.  My doctor said she isn't going to check up instead she finds a head up there too or worse 2 butts!  Later on before trying another cervix ripening tablet the nurse and a different midwife came and talked about trying pitocin.  I was like OK...  I know that speeds things up but harder on the body.  The nurse was suggesting I should do another round of tablet and see and I appreciate her concern,  she was very sweet.  

So...  Around 11am they let me off the monitor to take a shower and walk around. I sent my hubby off to check on our boy and play with him for a bit.  I was back on the monitor and was having decent contractions  when I baby kicked me really hard and it hurt like hell.  It was 2 minutes after I sent my husband off too..  It's like baby was mad her sad left.  Few minutes later the nurse showed up and told her I feel like my water broke and OMG did it break!  Was like the Hoover Dam! So I made a big mess on the bed...  The floor... Was trying to head to the bathroom but I couldn't stop leaking. Very attractive right? 

Managed to get myself to the bathroom while the nurse cleaned up my mess and then it started. Contractions  from hell! And no one was with me *cries*....

To be continued... 

Induction scheduled...

Tomorrow evening I take my pregnant and to the hospital for induction around 5 pm.  I know inductions are slow but I just wanna be done! Good luck to me!

How is Tobi going to react?

As I'm inching closer and closer to having this baby...  We all keep wondering how big brother Tobi is going to react. I almost feel like he wouldnt be interested as the baby would be pretty boring for a couple of months.  But I also can't shake the feeling that he is going to drag her off by her little feet.

I imagine him climbing into her crib and sitting inside with her.  It won't hold his weight as its just a temporary pack and play and both end up falling.  Or...  He can do what he normally does.  Whenever his bed gets made, he doesn't like ANYTHING on it except for the sheets. He throws the pillows and his stuffed toys away on the floor.  I just have a feeling that his sister would be on the floor too.  Need to keep an eye on him for sure..  My little wild child.

I imagine him pulling all of the pretty headbands that I made for his sister off of her head every single time.

I also imagine him taking her pacifier away and also taking her bottle away and drinking it.

Or..  I could be wrong. He could be a awesome big brother from the get go.  I won't know anything until it happens I suppose. No use losing sleep over this. My major worry is that I don't want him to think he is going to be neglected. Which...  Is very hard to do cuz he's such daredevil and needs an eye on him all the time.

Boy I tell you!  I get mommy guilt trips so bad nowadays it's crazy! My poor baby boy...  *sigh* that's another post all together.

I shall conclude this post!  Im going to snuggle with my boy and take a nap.

Why can't men breastfeed?

I know! I know! That's how it did meant to be.... But come on! 

If we pop the baby out they should be able to breastfeed.  

How about carry the baby part way?  You know the male seahorse is the one who carries and birth babies? Amazing isn't it? 

I just want my boob's back.  I'm not ready to have my boob's get hijacked again for another 2 yrs.  I know I sound selfish... And watch that judgmental tone of your voice.  Only the ONE can judge me and it's not a human being.  

I have a good reason for having a change of plan with this baby this time around.  No one is going to understand because they never been in my position. I will save that post for another day.  This is enough for now. 

I shall conclude my whines.  Orange you glad you know me?